finally after five months , i blogged. have lots of thing in mind to blog, but when i log in my account, i stared blank at the screen. ok, let me start now. rewind rewind rewind to what happen one month ago. sad to say , we're over . lots of thing happened , we're unable to be like the past. i really got alot to say , alot to rant , but out of a sudden i have nothing on my mind . we've got alot of memories, really alot . but i dint forget everythign , how we started, how much we went thru , how this , how that, your still in my heart. i still cant get over you. its been a month , im still here . still msging you thou everytime i know towards the end , we will argue , but i just cant help it to msg you . i know sometimes i don sound good. because of your words. i have been trying to talk to you really nicely , i bet you know and can feel it but i still dunno why you have to say nasty things to me when im talking nicely. you know my patience is not that good, but still i will try not to argue with you . im really upset that we become this way . i got alot of things to say to you , but when i saw you . the only thing i would like to do is to hug you tightly and not utter any words. i feel sad , i do. but theres no point to be tgt, we just dont suit. im really so sad that the fact we cant be tgt anymore, sad that we don meant to be tgt. sad that we love each other but not able to be tgt. i wish i've got 1 more wish and it can come thru. i love you so much , yet .. im lost of words now. i drink, i club , to forget everything , but it only lasted for a night. the next day when i wakeup , i tot of e erything again. i wish we were tgt happily . memories is killing me softly
